Carrying a precious secret.
12 Comments Crunched by sleepycarrot on Friday, January 25, 2008 at 1:13 AM.
I am carrying a precious little secret...
... of whom only a very few know...
My previous post must have bewildered a lot of you... Especially those who have bumped into me in college, but not know what in the world was different with the Roberta they knew. In fact, there's nothing different with the Roberta you know...
Except for the tiny little secret she's carrying...
In her little but growing womb.
***
Before you read on... I do realize this secret's not lasting as a secret anymore. Talk if you must, spread the word if you want, but don't twitch any truth you may not know of. You wouldn't want anyone telling the whole wide world that you were sleeping with your neighbor's wife, fullstop, when you were actually sleeping with your neighbor's wife, who happens to be your sister.
P.s. - A very big thank you for those who's respected and kept the word to themselves so I was able to personally tell others.
***
This week's my fourth month. My belly's still extremely small which is rather worrying. It wretches me each time I ponder back on my first trimester- the first three months which I was clueless of this secret's existence. I was only filled with negative force of insecurities, plus the bad flu that led me to consuming a harmful substance to the body. I don't know how I've made matter any worse already, when disappointing the people who trusted me of my innocent image was already a great deal.
I've gotten over the period of shame, and now I am prepared to face the world for I am proud of this gift I've received, whether it's from God, or just something biological as scientists would insist. For the past 10 years or so, I've always worried that I'd never be able to conceive. A dream that constantly bugged me was the one where I'd have my teeth dropping. Freudian interpretation would agree that the inability to conceive was a fear. Now that the fear's gone, I can only be happy and proud that I've got something to fight this insensible fear- my little secret.
Right now I'm filled with positive spirit from the supports I've received around me. I'm sure there are some that disapproves of what's going on, but hey, this is my life here. And hey, if you really have something negative to say, I'd understand. You have your own opinions as I have mine. But please be considerate. I need to fill myself with positivity now. My first trimester- the fetus' critical period- was already tragically filled with my irrational worries of anything at all.
Anyhow...
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEE... I'm getting a baby! Next checkup's next week. Should I take a peek at the baby's sex? Hm.
***
The semester's begun. Wedding preparations are beyond completed. Dearie and I are attempting godspeed at what we can complete, before the semester finds us in the hectic pursuit of completing assignments and serving for the 20-hour community service almost all Abnormal Psychology students are facing this semester.
Looks like it's gonna be one hell of a busy semester... but interesting one. :)
Crunch!!!
... of whom only a very few know...
My previous post must have bewildered a lot of you... Especially those who have bumped into me in college, but not know what in the world was different with the Roberta they knew. In fact, there's nothing different with the Roberta you know...
Except for the tiny little secret she's carrying...
In her little but growing womb.
Before you read on... I do realize this secret's not lasting as a secret anymore. Talk if you must, spread the word if you want, but don't twitch any truth you may not know of. You wouldn't want anyone telling the whole wide world that you were sleeping with your neighbor's wife, fullstop, when you were actually sleeping with your neighbor's wife, who happens to be your sister.
P.s. - A very big thank you for those who's respected and kept the word to themselves so I was able to personally tell others.
This week's my fourth month. My belly's still extremely small which is rather worrying. It wretches me each time I ponder back on my first trimester- the first three months which I was clueless of this secret's existence. I was only filled with negative force of insecurities, plus the bad flu that led me to consuming a harmful substance to the body. I don't know how I've made matter any worse already, when disappointing the people who trusted me of my innocent image was already a great deal.
I've gotten over the period of shame, and now I am prepared to face the world for I am proud of this gift I've received, whether it's from God, or just something biological as scientists would insist. For the past 10 years or so, I've always worried that I'd never be able to conceive. A dream that constantly bugged me was the one where I'd have my teeth dropping. Freudian interpretation would agree that the inability to conceive was a fear. Now that the fear's gone, I can only be happy and proud that I've got something to fight this insensible fear- my little secret.
Right now I'm filled with positive spirit from the supports I've received around me. I'm sure there are some that disapproves of what's going on, but hey, this is my life here. And hey, if you really have something negative to say, I'd understand. You have your own opinions as I have mine. But please be considerate. I need to fill myself with positivity now. My first trimester- the fetus' critical period- was already tragically filled with my irrational worries of anything at all.
Anyhow...
WEEEEEEEEEEEEEE... I'm getting a baby! Next checkup's next week. Should I take a peek at the baby's sex? Hm.
The semester's begun. Wedding preparations are beyond completed. Dearie and I are attempting godspeed at what we can complete, before the semester finds us in the hectic pursuit of completing assignments and serving for the 20-hour community service almost all Abnormal Psychology students are facing this semester.
Looks like it's gonna be one hell of a busy semester... but interesting one. :)
Crunch!!!
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i think the step that you are taking is a very brave one. i respect you for your courage for not taking the easy way out. i hope you have a lovely baby. ^^
You should be respected for the way you're handling this issue. Ignore what others say. Many may have been faced with the same decision as you did and with the same fears that you did but not as many might've been as brave as you are.
I wish you all the bestest in health and I'm sure you'll have a great bouncy baby :)
Dott.
Hey Lobstera. I was obviously extremely shocked to hear this news - not because it's you, but because my FRIEND is pregnant, or as some people say, preggers!! I'm with you all the way and I admire your courage in facing this situation. Send me pictures alright!! =P
roberrrttaaa:)
I hardly see you in college...anyways, hope you will pull through this period. If you need anything, holler at me kays?
Owh, owh! have you decided on baby namessss??? lols sorry. i love babies. always wanted to have one...
Yer!! My first friend's wedding and I CAN'T ATTEND!!! T_T
Send pictures la. I might be staying in the UK for my intern this summer but I'll definitely be back like 2 weeks or so before I head back to UK again.
So hopefully we can meet that time la and you already know what I want to do! Hehe
oh my god...
CONGRATULATIONS...
ok.. i know i must be one of the last few to find out of this matter...
for i've been offline the past few months..(uni's been mistreating me...)
but besides that.. congrats on ur err.. still a secret?
hope u'll get a cute and healthy baby :)
oh my.. so many things are happening here..
i've got tons to catch up..
good luck with the wedding..
i know its gonna be a blast..
best of wishes to you and yours :)
may you guys be happy always :)
will try to keep in touch again thru blog :) miss u all
-kenji-
Yo..Is good to see you're out in the open now.. Well we are happy for you and we hope that you are happy too... Whatever makes you happy and safe we will surely support you...But what the hell la..Get married so fast..I GF pun belum ada and introduce to you all you are getting married..HAhahaha..Joking...
But anyway just want to tell you..if you need any help and no one to turn to...you dear scouts friends are just a phonecall away.. We will do anything to help you...
All the best and God Bless...
p/s Hey dun stress yourself ok..not good for the baby...
omg omg OMG!!!
oh my gosh roberta, congrats!!! i am so so happy for u! so excited too!!! oh man, i was told that there was a secret, but i never expected such an exciting news!!!
take GREAT care of yourself ok. man, i wanna see your baby bump!!!
ngek ngek ngek. *devil smile*
there's still a halo above. :D
Hey, I was surprised to read about your secret. Firstly let me CONGRATULATE you. Wish I could come to your wedding (would I get invited though? hehe)
All the best with the baby - I'm sure he/she will be a cute baby. Take good care of yourself ok? :P
PS - you were selling Sophie Kinsella's Shopaholic and Baby earlier through your blog. If you haven't sold it - then read it! its funny and maybe 'helpful'. :)
Congratulations and lots of respect for being so brave. You're taking a step most people our age would rather avoid via taking very drastic and irreversible actions.
*salute*
You're such a brave girl. I wish I was like you. I lost mine to virus. Congrats! I'm so proud to know you. =) All the best to you and your baby, and also the daddy! =D