Friday, August 26, 2016

She has a crush!

Today, the 8-year-old told me that she really liked a boy named Ethan, the older brother of her daycare bestie. She explained to me that she liked him because he was nice to her and his sister, and that he condemned the bullies there. I guess she's appreciating acts of chivalry at this young age.

Her wish right now? That she would get to meet him more often since they've only met twice.

She sure takes after her mum.

Sunday, August 14, 2016

In doubt.

You know something is wrong with a relationship when you highly suspect (with signs over and over again) that the reason he wants to date you is solely because you're female; not because you're someone he's truly head over heels for.

Thursday, July 07, 2016

Thankful.

Am feeling so grateful for the friend that's been by my side these past couple of weeks... For eating, drinking and walking with me. For knowing when I'm down without me needing to tell him. For being brutally honest for my own sake. For making a fool out of himself just to make me laugh. For making my days feel a little less miserable.

Thank you, Z. :)

Tuesday, July 05, 2016

Damnit.

So you've started talking to me again. I thought I'd be elated but... Uggghh I still feel so unsettled.

What the heck happened prior to this? I don't think I should be asking anytime soon or things may turn sour again.

Oh God. I hate this. This curiosity mixed with the worry that I'd send the wrong signals... I don't know how much more awkward I'm gonna be.

Damnit.

Wednesday, June 29, 2016

Intuition.

To that certain someone...

My intuition tells me that you're avoiding me... are you?

You're always telling me to trust my intuitions because I've always gotten them right... just that I've always doubted myself. Now I'm really wishing that there are enough logical reasons to doubt myself this time, but all signs point to my intuition being right again.

So tell me, are you avoiding me?

You know how much I hate being expected to read minds... so why won't you look me in the eye these days?

You're so gloomy nowadays. I don't see you smile or eat. You reject when I offer you food. Your answers are short with me. Your questions for me... seems forced, especially when you answer them on my behalf, seemingly so you can move on to the others.

I really thought that we had a connection as friends. But all of the sudden, incident after another, you're pulling away.

Am I not worthy of this friendship?

Even if I am not... a simple "yes" or "no" would really be nice.